I gained fats, not weights, but fats...

Current addiction, Kina Grannis - Valentine
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As you can see from the title above, i gained fats, not weight but fats. It's true! Lots of people told me I'm more chubbier now. From the face and thighs, it's too obvious to deny the fact that I've gained plenty of fats. To be honest, I mind and oh definitely, I care, too. I hate to get comments about my appearances. It's not easy to ignore these comments ok. You know, I used to be so thin and suddenly, my fats just *poof* appeared and that really saddened me. Sigh.

Okay so here's the stories about these two months. Lots of things have happened and no doubts, it's disappointing. Really. The person I used to have a crush on, no longer my friend. The things I used to do, no longer doing it anymore. The person I used to talk to everyday, no longer talking anymore. Things are totally upside down now. I really wished things just go back to the way they were. So people, treasure the moments and every bits of them cause things will never be undone and time can never be reversed. Oh and don't forget to take pictures too cause you know, even the people inside the pictures have changed, the pictures will never. What else I can do? Only reminisce. That's all. Sigh. Quite disappointing tbh.

About my studies, hmmm nothing much actually cause I'm not really interested in it. But I'll force myself to face it everyday. It's hard, tough, but nothing I can do. Society these days only accept degree holders provided if you wanted a prestigious jobs lah. Talk about studies, I just remembered that I had a mock exam last December and I only did two papers out of five. PfftttPhishposh no worries It's only a mock. That's what people were telling me. Heh :P

Soooooo.... Dodgeball, it's a fun game though. I gained some interest in it and I'm starting to love it. But to choose between dodgeball and books, even though i hate books a lot, I'll still be rational and choose books. I'm sorry, dodgeball :( I won't have time for you till May.....

Sometimes you've to know your priority in order to move forward.

Nowadays, things were pretty unfair for me. I tried to move on from whatever that stays at the back of my mind but my heart just won't let me. Sigh this feeling is fucking killing me. I need to survive from this horror disastrous feeling.

I was kinda sad and tried to be a berlagak-pandai-story-writter. hehehhehehhe. here's my original story :P

"The atmosphere was calm and steady with the air-conditioner blowing out cold air. He took up most of the bed. All you heard was him snoring, very loudly. It irritated you and you were woken up by those noises. You held up a phone and you saw something you shouldn't see. You wished you saw nothing. You sighed and took a deep breathe as if something really heavy was sitting on your chest. You turned and looked at him. You tried to grab him close to you but somehow you felt the distance. You stopped trying. You cuddled up yourself like a ball. You looked up at the ceiling, thinking, tears started rolling down, involuntarily. You questioned yourself, one after another. You felt warm air at the back of your head. You tried not to move. You just couldn't fall asleep. You realized that the time wasn't moving at all. Even when he was right next to you, you've never felt that lonely before."

and

"On the bed, lying down anxiously waiting for one of your replies while listening to the songs playing. Asking myself again and again, am I falling in love? Nothing on earth, except myself knows the answer. I smiled, thinking about us, and the answer popped out, yes I am falling in love."


and 


" You're home, sitting on the couch feeling restless from an exhausting day, the only thing you need, is someone to be there knowing how you feel, showering you with love by just staying right next to you, giving you a kiss on the forehead, without even talking, you're already in his arms. You know so well, that's happiness. "


Back and forth back and forth from Ipoh to Kl and Kl back to Ipoh. You know, it's really tiring and expensive too! One ticket is about RM20, one way, you multiply it by two cause two tickets back and forth. Approximately twice every month so you multiply it by two again for a month. Hmmm I guess you know how much it costs now huh? No money, none actually, is easy to earn. Don't be a spendthrift and spend money prodigiously. Save some in your piggy bank so you could use it for future use. *Pftttt look who's talking*

So yeah that's all for today :) See you soon and take care. Till my next post, xoxo.