Saturday, 29 August 2015

The Cycle

Before you met him 
;
He was just a stranger to you
He was literally transparent to you
You have no idea that this person exists
His name was new to you
or maybe he was just a friend of a friend


Until one day, you met him
and he introduced himself
and you both smiled over the very first awkward 
"Hi I'm Elaine"
and the first awkward handshake
;
& now
He's not a stranger to you anymore
He's not transparent anymore
Can't believe you now know this good looking man
You mention his name more than you mention your ex's
And he's now your friend 


You both get along very well
Text almost every minute
about everything
no matter how small it is
from "why are you up so early?"
to "are you sleepy yet?"
;
You're getting used to having his text messages 
through
every good morning 
every breakfast
every lunch
every nap
every dinner
and also every good night


Lunch dates
Movie dates
Dinner dates
;
& finally, one day
He sent you a Facebook friend request
and also followed your Instagram account
don't forget Twitter too
He's part of your life now
and you're part of his
Remember how he was no one to you?

FATE.

He's very good in making you feel good about yourself
about all your insecurities
He compliments you
He makes you happy
He holds your hand like he's proud of having you
He hugs you like it was the last
;
& you start to think
maybe he's like that to all the girls too


I was once told that 
If a guy introduces you to his friends/parents
He's into you
;
and one day
He introduces you to his friends/parents
;
& you start to doubt
maybe he's like that to all the girls too


You start to fall in love


You feel butterflies
You embrace his habits
You notice his tiny actions
You learn more about his life
You memorise all his daily activities
You know all his personal details


Month 1
Month 2
Month 3
;
Everything turns out perfect
;
Maybe if you're lucky enough
;
there will be a 
Month 4
Month 5
Month 6
or maybe you will hit the Day 365


Until one day
;
"Good morning beautiful" disappears
"Have you had your breakfast?" disappears
"I'm having my lunch now" disappears
"Ttyl okay I'm gonna take a nap now" disappears
"What should I have for dinner? disappears 
"It's 3am now and I miss you" disappears too
& you start to wonder
maybe he's like that to all the girls too 



You realise that
these are all just temporary
;
You realise that
things are starting to change
;
You realise that
You were just some girls he met
;
You are just his temporary happiness


You wish that you could pause or reverse the time
to when both of you are at the happiest
;
but
you knew
;
It's not plausible


and now
You are trying to move on
;
from a relationship
that has never even happened
;
that does not even 
EXIST
in the first place
;
&
To him
You are just 
;
more than a friend
never a girlfriend
;
and you thank him
for all the temporary happiness
for also appearing in your life
for being there physically


Trust me
;
in no time
;
He will go back to being a stranger again
;
and the cycle continues
;
with another man






2 comments:

  1. Hits me right in the feels. Happens to everyone.

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